chistmas needs to hurry

last Sunday we went to Kevin's uncle toms home for the first family Christmas exchange since most will be out of town this Sunday. they're being weird and going to the beach for Christmas, in north Carolina. i always thought that area was cold and snowy this time of year. i dont know. i ended up with more bath stuff from bath and body works. fun fun. it wasn't all fun though cause i was a little sick. my ear has been in a lot of pain recently. this Sunday Kevin's parents are holding another celebration, i think its more for jakes sake than anybody cause we could have taken care of all this by now. but hey, they're not my family. just a bunch of strange people related to Kevin.

today i made pizza!! it was delicious. beef and bacon and oh so yummy. one of these days however im gonna have to remember to photograph the entire process. that would be a fun photo-story. :)

here one moment, looking very delicious

gone the next, having tasted very delicious! :)

this is why i hate god

sure it may have all started with the parents but this week, god sucks ass! why am i in so much pain while the men of earth can walk around pain free. that's not fair!!!! god is unfair. god is also a jackass, but that's another day. i know you're not suppose to hate but omg this week everyone deserves to be hated.

poo on you for that remark

i know i can be an angry, indecisive, not nice person. heres a thought, if you cant live with that, leave ya bitch!  dont care what people think 90% of the time, and when i do care i tend not to listen. but hey. what are you gonna do to a girl stuck ten years in the past not wanting to find answers anymore?? i drink, and i love drinking and i wont stop drinking. see i dont want kids. i haven't wanted kids since big brothers three babies came to live with us when i was like ten. you try raising a baby girl that's not yours at age ten cause mommy's at work, daddy's at school and the babies parents are so far up their own butts they lost the kids to begin with. i dont want kids. i will do everything i can think of to my body to prevent kids. id rather smoke silly and drink dill death than have kids. now if hell just understand maybe life can move forward one more time.... LOL

babes need a home