Beautiful Dau

the sun was shining, the clouds were moving, the trees were whistling in the wind. And all but complete with a bout of hiccups. I love the hiccups! NOT! they are the worst pain ive ever felt in my chest. i wish there were a way to permanently get rid of them. that would be so wonderful!!! but now to a quiet evening with the Capt. oh, we got a new bowl today. a swirling pale green like thing. its so cool! i like it a lot. yum! yum!

Can people really change?

Well, that depends on how you view 'people'. Ordinarily  most seem to think change is difficult or unnecessary. What these people don't understand is that change takes time. It can take days, months or even years to take notice. While some want change immediately, others need to understand it can't happen overnight. Overnight dreams are crazy stupid, in my opinion. While I myself hate change, I also know now, it needs to happen in order to GROW. And growing is a very important part of the human experience. We all need to cherish our own experience. Don't hate change, accept it. Accept it like you need to accept nobody was ever promised a tomorrow. Cherish today like it was ever changing! And love every moment...

something easier

There must be something much more interesting and so very much easier out there. I wonder how far away it is?? Is it even worth looking for at this point? Walking away from awesomeness is not something I'm familiar with. Circumstances suck, but the situation does not, always. Hmm.

found on facebook

For all my Ohio friends: This is hilarious!

Here is what Jeff Foxworthy has to say about Ohio...If your local Dairy Queen is closed from September through May, you may live in Ohio. If someone in a Home Depot store offers you assistance and they don't even work there, you may live in Ohio. If you've worn shorts and a jacket at the same time, you may live in Ohio. If you've had a lengthy telephone ...conversation with someone who dialed a wrong... number, you may live in Ohio. If "vacation" means going anywhere south of Dayton for the weekend, you may live in Ohio. If you measure distance in hours, you may live in Ohio. If you know several people who have hit a deer more than once, you may live in Ohio. If you have switched from 'heat' to 'A/C' in the same day and back again, you may live in Ohio. If you can drive 75 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard without flinching, you may live in Ohio. If you install
security lights on your house and garage, but leave both doors unlocked, you may live in Ohio. If you carry jumpers in your car and your wife knows how to use them, you may live in Ohio. If you design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit, you may live in Ohio. If the speed limit on the highway is 55 mph -you're going 80 and everybody is passing you, you may live in Ohio. If driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow, you may live in Ohio. If you know all 4 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter and road construction, you may live in Ohio. If you have more miles on your snow blower than your car, you may live in Ohio. If you find 10 degrees "a little chilly", you may live in Ohio. If you actually understand these jokes, repost this so all of your Ohio friends and others can see,you definitely do live - or have lived - in OHIO! =)

never enough time

theres never enough time in the day to do what you really want. i want to run, be free, have free thoughts roam again. i miss my think out loud sessions. they were very very helpful when it came to clear my head. now im fearful of what someone might hear or say. now i dont want to let loose with anything. there are now too many ears listening in. that annoys, deprives and angers me. that makes me sad and tired. im so tired now, all the time. i want to sleep or drink all the time. i never want to leave the warmth of this house, which is also very annoying. and now, if i open my mouth there might come offensive words that piss someone off and then im homeless. ofcourse i could go look for help but the help i want is no longer close enough. anger boiling over unlike that bean soup Joyce is cooking for dinner. oh, bean soup? i get they like beans, but basic bean soup? hopefully theres more than just beans and ham bone fall offs. oh joy!