Dinner was delicious!

for dinner tonight I finally made the steak and potatoes. I didn't like the potatoes though. Next time Ill stick to mashed.


And the kitties. Only got pictures today from the babies. but they are getting cuter than ever! 

Hes a CUTIE PIE! lol

These are from last night I think. Its been harder to remember with not sleeping so well lately. I like having animals around. I makes it easier to talk stuff out and not bear a stranger down with my mental issues. lol

realized today is friday

sometimes i hate how i loose my own mind. i have no control over what it does. i cant stop thinking if its hungry which gives me headaches. and now i realized that the post done yesterday was meant for today. instead i sit here waiting for something to do. not really ready to smoke and cant drink till later for fear of finishing the bottle (of which barely any is left). Kevin might get angry with the whole deal issue. we went, i picked up and now when do we drop off, Monday? what are we doing Monday? your mom has plans, so no grocery. i guess we could veg out. but that gets tiring too. i also want to start daily walks to the YMCA and back, but thanks to this cold shelf that has arrived, that's weather dependent. sucks living in Ohio cause there's no chance of an accurate prediction on the damn weather. i want warm sunny skies, blue clouds and rain drops every 7-10 days. that would be perfect year round in my mind.

Where the hell did Spring go?

I cant wait to get these plants out on the patio. And once again after a few days of wonderful weather we get a cold shelf. It sucks. Here are some photos of whats going on right now. There may be some that are blurry and of course Ill include some of the kitties.

Four potted so far. The one blooming, I forgot what seeds I placed in there.

Just another view.

Five spot. Im actually excited to see if these grow. There one of my favorite flowers.

And Climbers. I love the shade blue they bloom. Its a beautiful spring blue.
















As I sit here watching two kitties sleep the little Sylvester plays with the catnip ball.
Anywho, here are some photos of the cats....

Kinda blurry but very cute kitties.

They always smell each other before finally sitting and settling down. Its funny sometimes.

Spotticuss can be a [ain when she gets into trouble. And its harder to catch her after that too. lol

But shes so adorable resting.

I dont see it

Yes it may entirely be that I dont want to. My brain may be preventing it due to my anger. There are a bajillion reason your brain acts and reacts the way it does. Ive seen Maria's photo. Call her anything else in my presence, you're bound for a pencil in your eye. Ill try and sharpen it first. Her name is not Millie. She never was to him. Had she been, don't you think he would have tried to find her when Kim came around. Come on people. He already knew of one bastard daughter out there from nowhere. What could possibly possess him to think there were no others. See, not only was he from Texas, he was a Marine. He traveled to Japan and many other paces. I would not be totally surprised now if I did infact have a non-sibling living in Asia. I dont think its right that after all these years she can just show her nasty face. He left you and your momma in the trash for a reason. Obviosly a very good reason, or Id have found out about you some six years ago. Had he really cared, hed have found you then. Now do me a favor, add yours and list all the things that makes you think you fit.

This was taken about an hour ago. I know you also have posted a new photo. Load them and compare. C'mon it will make you feel better about butting in where you were NEVER wanted.

Such a boring Tuesday

Cant imagine anytime in the last few weeks I've had so little to occupy my mind. Its very refreshing, and very unsettling. With the knowledge about Maria floating around, youd think Id be more upset. Not this time. It was almost expected if not this year, maybe in three years. Bottom line, hes never stopped lying. So, Welcome to this family you dumb bitch. Hope you'll fit right in! LOL. Now do us all a favor and show your fat face!!!