well shits too you!

you try living ten years knowing your mother never wanted you, never cared for you, never even thought about what would happen to you after she walked away. shes a whore! I'm not saying everything that happened to me is her fault, but what do you expect when the other parent begins to neglect you for his new wife/life. you act out! you're fifteen and not a damn soul cares about you. what the fuck would you do? and remember i had bobby and Richard Jr to look up to, not mom. and what happened when they got divorced? everybody else scattered. Jen and Jon married, and left. Richard was long gone, and bobby ran to Lacey's and her family. thanks for the support you ass jacks! no joke though, not even six months after my parents were divorced, dad was marrying some other whore who already had seven kids of her own, and her youngest was my age. you really think shes was interested in mothering at that point? no, she was into beating. that was 2003. still stuck in hell with no obvious way out. now i don't know what to think. i don't know how to forget. all i want this year is to forget. this hot chocolate may be burning my tongue but i want alcohol to burn this memories from my brain. in twenty four years i cant remember a birthday party or a family Christmas that had both parents where everyone was happy. i cant remember family dinners except for whats been told to me. my own memories being told to me like it was the first time. that's what i want to forget!