Dinner was delicious!

for dinner tonight I finally made the steak and potatoes. I didn't like the potatoes though. Next time Ill stick to mashed.


And the kitties. Only got pictures today from the babies. but they are getting cuter than ever! 

Hes a CUTIE PIE! lol

These are from last night I think. Its been harder to remember with not sleeping so well lately. I like having animals around. I makes it easier to talk stuff out and not bear a stranger down with my mental issues. lol

realized today is friday

sometimes i hate how i loose my own mind. i have no control over what it does. i cant stop thinking if its hungry which gives me headaches. and now i realized that the post done yesterday was meant for today. instead i sit here waiting for something to do. not really ready to smoke and cant drink till later for fear of finishing the bottle (of which barely any is left). Kevin might get angry with the whole deal issue. we went, i picked up and now when do we drop off, Monday? what are we doing Monday? your mom has plans, so no grocery. i guess we could veg out. but that gets tiring too. i also want to start daily walks to the YMCA and back, but thanks to this cold shelf that has arrived, that's weather dependent. sucks living in Ohio cause there's no chance of an accurate prediction on the damn weather. i want warm sunny skies, blue clouds and rain drops every 7-10 days. that would be perfect year round in my mind.

Where the hell did Spring go?

I cant wait to get these plants out on the patio. And once again after a few days of wonderful weather we get a cold shelf. It sucks. Here are some photos of whats going on right now. There may be some that are blurry and of course Ill include some of the kitties.

Four potted so far. The one blooming, I forgot what seeds I placed in there.

Just another view.

Five spot. Im actually excited to see if these grow. There one of my favorite flowers.

And Climbers. I love the shade blue they bloom. Its a beautiful spring blue.
















As I sit here watching two kitties sleep the little Sylvester plays with the catnip ball.
Anywho, here are some photos of the cats....

Kinda blurry but very cute kitties.

They always smell each other before finally sitting and settling down. Its funny sometimes.

Spotticuss can be a [ain when she gets into trouble. And its harder to catch her after that too. lol

But shes so adorable resting.

I dont see it

Yes it may entirely be that I dont want to. My brain may be preventing it due to my anger. There are a bajillion reason your brain acts and reacts the way it does. Ive seen Maria's photo. Call her anything else in my presence, you're bound for a pencil in your eye. Ill try and sharpen it first. Her name is not Millie. She never was to him. Had she been, don't you think he would have tried to find her when Kim came around. Come on people. He already knew of one bastard daughter out there from nowhere. What could possibly possess him to think there were no others. See, not only was he from Texas, he was a Marine. He traveled to Japan and many other paces. I would not be totally surprised now if I did infact have a non-sibling living in Asia. I dont think its right that after all these years she can just show her nasty face. He left you and your momma in the trash for a reason. Obviosly a very good reason, or Id have found out about you some six years ago. Had he really cared, hed have found you then. Now do me a favor, add yours and list all the things that makes you think you fit.

This was taken about an hour ago. I know you also have posted a new photo. Load them and compare. C'mon it will make you feel better about butting in where you were NEVER wanted.

Such a boring Tuesday

Cant imagine anytime in the last few weeks I've had so little to occupy my mind. Its very refreshing, and very unsettling. With the knowledge about Maria floating around, youd think Id be more upset. Not this time. It was almost expected if not this year, maybe in three years. Bottom line, hes never stopped lying. So, Welcome to this family you dumb bitch. Hope you'll fit right in! LOL. Now do us all a favor and show your fat face!!!

Hiccups kill people

So do insults. I am more insulted now after reading that name change then I was when I first found out about you. And that was a lonely night. This kills and he wont give a damn. Cant you at least show a little respect to the children he kept? I mean, I know I want him dead and all but you're demeaning innocent people. The least you could have done was kept your distance till I was dead. You know, in all honesty I have to question if hes even told you about us. Wouldn't that be funny. You're a jackass. Go figure since you're so desperate to have him as your father. I think I hate you more, and Ive never even laid eyes on you.

Tuesday with some Booze

Sometimes I love the way I think. At other times, it greatly scares me. Heres my week in a few photographs. I love my kitties, but at times they really do kill me. Im tired of them running all over me, especially when I sleep. Although it can be funny watching them run over Kevin when he sleeps cause at times he responds. I also find it very cute. At some time though I must have promised not to photograph him while he is sleeping cause I have no new ones from the last year. I just cant believe its been two years come June.

Catnip can be fun, sure. But then they fight and I have to yell. Maybe one day Ill learn to spot two catnip places for them crazy boys!!

Kisses are beautiful! And in this photograph Spotticuss looks very high. There's also a small chance that its very true. I also could have simply gotten her as soon as she woke up or in a very bright flash. All three fall into that crazy 'anythings possible' category. lol.

And my beautiful candle. And of the many reasons I love Kevins mother. Shopping with Joyce can be time consuming but it always works out in the end and like yesterday with this beautiful candle from Target.

A Friday with nothing

Literally! I have no pancake mix which means no pancakes. I was really looking forward to them. I have no brain activity right now. Theres just nothing. So to spice this boring afternoon up, Im calling in Five Oclock!!

how could you say that!!!

I don't know why I am friends with crazy people. I mean, no offense, but who likes watching rain turn to snow?? That is, in my plain opinion, the stupidest thing Ive ever heard of someone liking. I hate snow. In actuality, I hate cold weather. Who cares if it snows, I hate cold weather. Who sees it raining right now? I'm not wanting to go outside cause it will likely be months till we experience a warm rain. Its cold outside!!! Please stop acting crazy and liking whats happening outside. You do realize its also March. Think about this time last year when there was ice all over the roads. Yeah, I remember that. I was moving into our new place. Had trouble getting into the parking lot cause of all the ice. I was afraid of driving cause of all that nasty ice. Don't bring that back by liking whats happening outside. That would not be nice to anyone!! So imagine me times a million other people are asking you, don't like that crap that's happening outside!!!! Its nasty and disgusting and can only get worse. I mean, HELLO! We live in Ohio. It only ever gets worse when it comes to the weather. Snow is evil and now I want to cry. It is starting to stick to cars and the ground. Before you know it, we'll have ice on the roads and my nightly drive will be off limits.

                                          Unedited photos of whats currently happening outside

Pain in the brain

Yes, as many would assume, my brain hurts. Thats really the only reason you feel pain in your brain. I dont know. My mind is being funny right now. Bubbles is good at making this happen. And with the kitties being so quiet right now, Im not really sure what to do. Its very off-putting. I dont really know what to think right now either. This is very strange. I dont like it!!! lol

On the other hand, there is a very delicious brownie just waiting for someone to pick it up and enjoy all the chocolaty goodness it has to offer. I also think it funny that most smart people in science cant bear to say the words 'dick' or 'vagina'. After all that money spent, all that time possibly wasted you'd think they could carry on a conversation.

Bubbles is here with me. Thanks to Bubbles I can relax in candlelight and type aimlessly about nothing. That seems to be the norm lately any who! I looked at ricks page today. nothing seems to be going on in anybody's life. Come to think of it, I cant even remember what was posted. Thank you Bubbles!!! I think Ill choose the blue candle next.

my race through the kitchen

While spring is just teasing us around the corner, I have a disaster of a kitchen right now. Also, my fridge and freezer are loosing room more and more everyday. This always leads to cooking sprees which Im not sure how excited about this I am. Its confusing since I have no desire to be cooking right now.

                                           A few days ago, I made some mini tacos with salsa.

And tonight since I knew I had to atleast try to make a dent, I make sausage and rice. Simple but delicious!

And with Tuesday pretty much done for me, Ill go look for more recipes. Hopefully soon Ill start taking all this more seriously

30 recipes in how many days?

I know I can not do thirty recipes in thirty days. I can try to do two recipes a week in which case that would be fifteen recipes in thirty days. Although I dont like that idea totally either. So I tried to think of another and yet another way to broaden my cooking skills. Right now I have thirty-one recipes. A few of them even sound like a little fun to cook and try. Here, I list my first thirty-one recipes, no time limit to complete them, and a whole bright new world.

Chicken-Parmesan Potatoes
Mocha Ice Cream Cakeroll
Steak au poivre for two
Southwestern Turkey-tater Casserole
Cherry Berry pie
Sour cream and beef turnovers
sausage and mushroom soup
chocolate pumpkin bread
tex-mex pot roast
spicy pumpkin bars
lasagna burgers
raspberry pomegranate smoothies
open-faced hamburger phillies
porketta with two potatoes
ranch turkey burgers
lemon cheesecake pies
chicken pot pie
roasted pecan fudge
hot fudge brownie cake
lelas baked ham
pan-fried pork chops
heavenly key lime pie
chocolate chip cookies from scratch
roast chicken with green beans
refrigerator yeast rolls
caramel nut pull apart bread
banana pudding from scratch
peanut butter cookies from scratch
country ham with redeye gravy
30 minute chili
the perfect burgers

As I complete these recipes I hope to post photos and stories from the kitchen.

a little while later

on a land lost to time, there was a lonely lady sitting in front of a television smelling brownies....... for some extra fun, here are some extra photographs from the day of baking incuding random crap.

                                            BUT FIRST I GIVE YOU:::


                                                             CRAZY BROWNIES

                                                                 I really cant wait to try!!!


and then the randoms from today that make no sense to any educated person.

Its time for one of those smokies

Nestle Toll House Triple Chocolate Cookies
  1 pkg Nestle Toll House Refrdg Chocolate Chip bar, softened at room temp for 30 minutes
  1/3 cup Nestle Toll House baking cocoa plus additional for rolling
  2 tbspn Nestle Toll House premier white chocolate morsels

1. preheat oven to 325 F. Grease two baking sheets.
2. combine softened cookie dough and cocoa in large mixer bowl.
3. roll dough to 1/4 inch thickness between sheets of parchment paper using addtn cocoa to prevent sticking. Cut into shapes, place 1 in apart on baking sheets.
4. bake for 12 to 13 minutes or until edges are set. coll for two minutes.
5. microwave morsels in small heavy duty plastic bags (Ziploc) in med-high power for 20 seconds. knead if necessary. cut tiny corner from bag. squeeze over cookies, let stand for 15 minutes. store cookies between wax papers in air tight cont.

 

I tried to write 'i <3 u' with icing for Kevin

 

Cookie with icing

                                      Cookies without icing. I think they kind of look like poop. lol

Something to think about

There's always something to think about. Just because today is Tuesday doesn't mean my brain shuts off. To be honest, I don't think it has that ability. I love life. I love people. Why cant I see them mixing for the rest of my life? Okay, so apparently my brain can shut off. As I sit here watching t.v. I cant think straight about anything. Its like the alcohol is finally working. My brain is finally taking a break. I'm not sure I like this though.