realized today is friday

sometimes i hate how i loose my own mind. i have no control over what it does. i cant stop thinking if its hungry which gives me headaches. and now i realized that the post done yesterday was meant for today. instead i sit here waiting for something to do. not really ready to smoke and cant drink till later for fear of finishing the bottle (of which barely any is left). Kevin might get angry with the whole deal issue. we went, i picked up and now when do we drop off, Monday? what are we doing Monday? your mom has plans, so no grocery. i guess we could veg out. but that gets tiring too. i also want to start daily walks to the YMCA and back, but thanks to this cold shelf that has arrived, that's weather dependent. sucks living in Ohio cause there's no chance of an accurate prediction on the damn weather. i want warm sunny skies, blue clouds and rain drops every 7-10 days. that would be perfect year round in my mind.